Give and take

I have come to a crossroad.

On my left is a reversion to my life in a committed relationship, back to the place he (and I) call home, back to the routine, back to my friends, back to adjusting my life to accommodate a relationship. Alot of give and take.

On my right is the complete opposite of the above direction. No more commitment to someone else. Completely selfish fulfilment, satiation of my own wants, my own desires without having to consider anyone else's feelings.

Or straight ahead is the same path I am taking at the moment. Perhaps neither here nor there, caught in a limbo of a relationship that is waiting for the future. This path is a dangerous path, not as well maintained as those on my left nor my right. It means continuing on with my plans whilst trying to make someone else happy as well.

I could always try going in the same direction, hoping that the potholes won't completely ruin my journey, hoping that I will eventually come to another crossroad when I am ready to turn in a direction. The risk of that is coming to:

A dead end.

What is love? (Baby don't hurt me)

What is love? I always thought that love is the selfless want for others to be better off than you are. 

Now that I am older and wiser, I know that love means caring for someone and hoping for their wellbeing. I love all my friends. I am the type of friend that wishes that they would all do well. I am also the type that wishes my acquaintances well too.

The problem is, there is a fine line between friendly, platonic love and the romantic love that fills the movies and popular songs. I care for someone. Does that mean I love them? I think it does. As I said, I love all my friends. Do I love them all in the same way though? I am not sure. I once read an article in one of those superficial magazines (cosmo, cleo, whatever) about a woman who used to date many men at once. She paralleled her experiences with men to those with friendships. "You never have one friend do you? You have friends that have different interests that you call on different occasions, depending on what you are doing and what suits them". I always thought that article was bullsh*t but now that I think about it, I reluctantly admit that it may apply to those I love. Friends, family, etc. 

Love encompasses all types of relationships. The problem is defining the line.